21/12/2008 Sunday 阴雨 "过冬" upset

today is 过冬,and i wake up at9.30am,i suppose to be happy in that day but before i go out to training badminton,my mum told me 1 of my standard 6 frd father gets high blood pressure and is lying on the hospital now,and she said she will go to take a look after fetching me~i was sad after hearing it.when i return home,my mum told me he had passed away at 3.00am last night~i was shocked and upset T.T~later i sms to her but she no reply,then i help my father to wash the car and bath the dog.the sky started raining again~at night i eat lunch together with my cousin,at about 9.00pm i follow my mum to his funeral,when i reach there i saw my old frd but i dint even say hi and talk to her,cause we long time didnt saw.later her mum come out from a room and looks very upset,so their cousin give her some advice,but she is still crying.my heart feel paint while watching she cry,i wanted to give her some advices but i saw many ppl is caring about her,so i didnt give~at about 10.20pm we go back.I very upset and regret didnt talk to my old frd even i back also no say bye,cause she is doing something~T.T i feel i am very bad.when i reached home,duno y my fish overturn,so i put it in a pond.duno y i feel that these days really happens many things that i cant imagine,but everytime i also have to recover it myself.however i think is it god's testing me?